I'm the most hypocritical, contradicting person ever. I say I'm against a certain thing and ending up doing it anyways. mostly, when it comes to feelings I have towards people I really care about. I act like I don't give a shit but I do. I've heard from a friend that they say I'm the strongest from all of the other girls in the group. how in awe I was hearing such nonsense. I felt proud but ashamed. ashamed to admit to my real feelings. ashamed of not wanting to let people get close to me. ashamed of how afraid I am of getting hurt again.
