its not fair that you know alot about me but not vice versa. i only know certain things and little pieces of u, and thats only on your good days. sometimes i feel like you’re a stranger, cause who am i really talking to? its not fair that you always ALWAYS force me to do things when i never force you to do the same. its not fair that i’m no one to you but you care so much that sometimes i believe i am. showing you care is different than u actually caring. maybe you just wanna know parts of my story not because you care but for the sake of knowing. you just wanna know. thats it. its not fair that when u say we’re not anything or that you dont have feelings for me or anyone for that matter, you do these things to me, only me. and why is that? you say we’re just friends but treat me differently. you keep giving me something to look forward to. i keep asking why but in the back of my head i already know the answers. i already know why, its just that i want you to reassure me. you have no fucking clue to what i’m hoping u to do, you just dont have the idea to show some decency to be honest or true. i can go on for hours when i’ve been holding it for years. forgive but not forgetten or maybe i haven’t done both and actually havent let it go, you wont even know, maybe i’m not even the person u thought i was, maybe i dont actually love u anymore or maybe i can just leave.
