i finally had the guts to tell you what i've been bottling up these years. all my inner feelings, all my fears, my rage i had for you in the past. just because you didn't return my love, you didn't say much but you seemed emphatic. you were always someone with few words so i don't mind. i just wanted to let u know what i've been through. that's it. your ears for the night was enough for me to lift this weight off my shoulders. you can't even imagine the anxiety that's been haunting me because i didn't justify my feelings truly towards you. i understand. i let it go but i still wanted to let you know. no matter what happens in the future, at least you understand why i won't fully trust you yet. you broke me and i healed, not completely that's for sure. so when i started rambling whatever i had to say, i felt at ease and calm, it was strange that i wasn't scared to say what was on my mind. i was expecting you to understand and you did. even though you're a psycho.
