im so fucking tired to always having to fix this stupid relationship. its like we go on and off but without reassurance and i feel crazy when you’re the one making me feel guilty. you keep pointing the gun and somehow im the one ending up pulling the trigger. im so tired of you ignoring me and not making me a priority when i made it clear ur mine. ok lets say i FINALLY gave up like i always say i would, what happens then huh? it’ll repeat again, in time ill get over u but u wont get over me and still want someone to be a staple to love u. so u go ahead with your sweet talk to lure me in then when u have me back, u push me away. so basically im the only one giving my all, im not one to deny that the efforts are one-sided. certain times, it hit me that u never cared. u always loved someone else. u always flaunt someone else. but its always not me. i remembered when i posted a vid of a show on ig then u posted the same but a few minutes later u deleted yours cause u didnt want anyone to know that i was with you at that time. im not someone u want to show off. i get that now.
